I am on the final pages of three of the greatest chapters in my life. As they are rapidly coming to a close, I have been thinking about life. We are the authors of our own lives. Currently, the chapters that are ending in my life, include student teaching (one of the best experiences I could have asked for to prepare me for my future career as a teacher), the finale of my school production of "Godspell" (the tightest cast I have ever had the pleasure of being a part of, and one of the greatest characters I have played to date), and my senior year of college (which I will miss the experience of being a member of this community, as well as living with and next to my best friends).
It is a bitter-sweet time, to be enjoying these wonderful experiences, but to know that within a few weeks (less than a month all together), each one will be over, and I will be left with only splendid memories. Some times I want to hold on to great moments in life, and replay them over and over again. In movies, it never turns out well when someone is forced to perpetually relive the same day over and over, and yet there are a few days I would not mind trying to live again and again. It is so difficult to fully enjoy something to its potential, when you begin to mourn the loss while you still have it.
I should not be sad. Each passing year seems to top the previous one. Each has their down moments, but the ups are becoming all the more amazing with time. Although some of the dips are low, the highs are wonderful. I suppose that without the bumps in the road, the highs would not be as noticeable, and ultimately as amazing.
As I am finishing my best chapters of my life thus far, I have faith that there are even greater ones to come. The sweet hello of tomorrow is helping me to cope with the bitterness of saying good-bye today.
Enjoy the now, and hope for later.
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